Posts tagged ‘twisted’

February 11, 2013

“You left, how am I supposed to forgive you if you left?”

“You left, how am I supposed to forgive you if you left?” I said, tears forming in my eyes.
“I don’t know, I just needed time, everything was falling around me, except you and it didn’t make sense because when everything fell, I expected you to fall with it” He said as he came closer to me.
“You expected me to fall? Why? You know I’d never have left, I’d never have went away”
“I know. Okay. I know. And I understand you know, I understand if you don’t want to get back with me, I wouldn’t blame you. I guess I deserve it with how I treated you. I should have known you wouldn’t have left me too.”
“Jamie, I would never leave you, you understand that right?” I said, taking his hand in mine.
“I understand” he said, as he collapsed into my arms, crying.
I didn’t know what to do, normally It’s Jamie holding me but now it’s him and I have no clue what to do, I hold him, I hold him so tight that if I let go again, he would just leave, he would leave without saying bye, he would just disappear with no one to be there for him, or me. I was afraid of losing him, I was so afraid but I couldn’t help but act like it was normal, act like it was all okay when it wasn’t, everything was falling around me too, It wasn’t just falling around him but he doesn’t understand that. He doesn’t understand that I feel the same pain as him.